Storm of Feelings,

AIHH..!!
Hamster asked me about the post again...
An Interact Club post for next year.
I wan it. LOL.
But then..
DEBATE.

I agree with Hamster tat it'll drench our soul out.
HAH.
Well mayb because we experienced it for a few months tis year.
It was torment. But it was also an enjoyment.
But mostly. TORMENT. LOL
We skipped countless classes. N had influence us to hate studying. xP
We got left out so much, thr's lk no meaning bah. ish..

Well, if you read abt my previous blogpost:
http://ayutomoe.blogspot.com/2008/04/officially-ou.html

Debate sorta gave me a few saddening memories... haizz..
But yet thr's tis tiny winny bit of my heart tat says:
"I still love debate."
"I wanna debate..."
"I wanna at least officially get into the debate team in my secondary life.."

But the post....
I had to choose.
Participating in both will b problematic.
I'm no super girl. I'm left out enuf in this year.
If I join both = super stress = skip lots of class = phail spm = doomsday.
Whee~ =="
And plus, it'll b hard for Hamster to give me work load if I join debate.
Aint it? ^^

Wad made the choosing harder was..
The straight attitude of the teacher.
Well, she was betrayed before, training the Form 4s but they wanted to quit in Form5.
She named tat quitting BETRAYAL.
And she clearly stated out tat she wanted 120% of our commitment.
We even nid to sign a contract tat says we wont b quitting next year.
Hah.. Havent got the contract yet.
Mayb I'm just nth anyways.
Mayb its a good thing?

But in actually fact, Teacher, u betrayed me 1st..
Whn u told me wad u told me before our match with the champs.

*laughs*
I'm so pathetic..
I dont noe wad I was doing, am doing n will be doing nemore abt debate.
Nvr did noe.
Saddening isnt it?
*laughs*

Well, I'm still indecisive abt tis.
I dont wanna regret.
Regret letting go of debate.
But yet I wanna protect myself. my heart...

Dou shiro ne?
Wad shud I do??
Both are wad my heart wans.
Jesus lead me on!!
Onegai shimas!