Presence that fills up my senses

As many would know, I'm a Roman Catholic.
A youth. Duhh. lols.
N I've always wanted a personal encounter with God or Jesus...

On the 26th of July 2008,
I heard God.
Eventhough, to me its nt yet a personal encounter, but still,
I'm very blessed to have heard Him replying me..
Its okayy if u think its just plain coincidence,
but nth is a coincident becz God is in full control. ^^
So all you nid to do is believe..

I went to youth as usual.
Had been feeling down these few weeks due to some unknown reasons.
Was hoping God could tell me wad's happening...

On that day, the Gospel was talking abt Finding Treasures.
Our Lord Jesus tells us a parable of ppl, giving up everything they own, selling everything they own to buy a land tat they found treasure in. Tat's wad we shud b doing too...

During sharing, we shared abt our current materialistic treasures.
Well, I have nth much in mind..
But I shared abt my computer.
♥ my comp!
I use it for many many reasons,
Chatting is one.
Blogging is another.
Watching anime, reading manga,
Finding info etc etc.
Somehw, my comp became a rly big part of my life.
Cant live without it. teehee~

After tat sharing, we also shared abt wad treasures we encountered, special moments or God's touch in the past 2 weeks..
Due to limited time and blank-ness,
I shared abt the 2nd Law Olympiad Competition.
I'm rly glad to have went with my frends.
I manage to have great fun with them, and get to know them a lil bit more =)
Guess tat's also counted as a treasure. XD

After that, the Core [ldr of the youth] -- Dominic, asked some1 to share a testimony abt wad he shared..
N apparently, they chose my brother.
lols.
He shared abt his most treasured relationship with his gf right nw..
The most precious thing tat he hold near his heart..
Then here comes the big question,

"If God says that you can only choose between Him and your precious relationship, which will you choose?"

Being a honest fella, my bro was silent. He didnt noe hw to answer.
It was afterall a tough question. Choosing God would mean u'll have to give up on ur current treasure.
Btw, his gf was thr among the youths too. Which makes it harder to be answered.

He mentioned tat thr's something rly huge stirring up in his heart at tat moment.
And to think tat if I was to make tat decision,
the stirring of my heart grew too.
Dom said to let it continue to stir, let the heart decide..
I decided on God. Well, God is God after all ya know?
He noes wad's best for us. If I choose God and He says comp is fine in my life,
I'll still get my comp rite? ^^
My bro after a few mins, finally said, " If I had to make tat decision, I'll choose God."
His voice was shaky.
With that he went back to his seat.
Quite cool thou. haha..

Den we went into a session of praise and worship..
Many things flashed back in my mind.
My mind was in knots.
Frends. School. Online Frends. Hatred. Frustration. Stress. Hurt.
My own attitude. Actions. Thoughts.
Tears were streaming.
The pain inside..
God was touching me, Crying is a sign of healing.

Then, I told God..
"I'm sorry God, I dont have the courage to do wad I had to and need to do, pls God.. Help tis poor soul..."
Just then, Dom said,
"Thr's a person asking for courage from God now, God is giving you this courage that you're asking for....."

"But God, I dunno hw to act God! I'm lost.. Things just get so [insert word] all the time... "
"God will guide you, he'll give you guidance in your journey of life....."

I got shocked hearing tat. Its rly as if God was talking to me directly.
I apologised..
"I'm so sorry God, for oways letting you down, for I didnt have the courage to do your will so many times, I'm sorry God for my actions, for always hurting You...."
"Those asking for forgiveness! God has forgiven you and will always do!"

GOSH. More tears were streaming..
Wad reassurance..
It felt good.
I heard God.. Speaking to me. Thru Dom..
It was the 1st time..

I felt God's presence too.. ^^
As I opened up my hands and raised them up,
I felt these little heat at the tips of my fingers..
Like God's warmth. It was comforting..
My knees went wobbly for a sec too. haha.. =)

All in all, 26th of July 2008,
God gave me peace. reassurance.
The courage to move forward and a place of dependence.

Alleluia! Praise the Lord! XD
GOD IS AWESOME.
Trust me *winks*