words to my dear juniors

I'm actually quite busy lol, but I feel that I can't ignore what is going on.
Maybe I'm not qualified to say anything or to step into your matters,I may not even know the whole story, but based on what I read and the bits and pieces I assembled myself, I just hope the tension between you people will be dissolved soon :)
Life's too short.

Well, life is a very weird thing actually.
It gives you so much happiness and yet so much pain.
But to ease the pain, the key is to COPE.. properly.
You see, in life, we don't always get what we want.
We can't please everybody, and we can't expect everyone to please us.
You can try, but if it's too much burden or if the efforts are 'under-preciated',
pack up and leave.
We need people who can accept us as who we are, not who we show others.

Self-reflection is important.
Too less of it, may make you arrogant, oblivious even.
Self-worth is important.
Yet, too much of it may make you egotistic.
Having a stand on your belief is important.
But respecting other people's point of view is equally important.
Learn to accept things, or if you must change something, take baby steps.
What I've learnt in life is that rushing things thru usually ends up in back fire.

As for the 'criticisms', advises in those forms are the most hurtful yet the most powerful.
They can change a person. But the person receiving it must be open about it.
You see, some ppl don't even give a damn about others, others give too much.
So in the end of the day, it'll still be you to judge.
To reflect, to evaluate the truth in such comments.
To decide, whether it is for the better to change.

To the one who gives such 'criticisms',
remember to be kind in your words and gestures as well.
No matter what happens, always know that the human heart is fragile.
Everyone has dignity and ego & it's cruel to bruise it.

Just to clarify, I'm not taking sides or whatever.
Just wanted to say what's on my mind,
hopefully this msj reach you guys in a calm and harmonious manner :)

Friendship is a precious thing in life.
Especially those made in High School...
You guys will understand it one day, soon perhaps :)

For the record, I'm quite glad you guys chose to blog about your thoughts.
Truth be told, I did the same thing with my dear friend last time.
We posted our feelings and views and finally confronted each other.
Reconciliation.
Both of us changed in the end :)
we grew more mature in our thinking and
we learnt the value of understanding and tolerance.

forgetting to breathe

oh my goodness,  sometimes I realise I just forgot to breathe.
like seriously. and I end up breathing with my mouth lol.
shortness of breath.
does this happen to anyone else??

*inhale...*
*exhale.....*

BFFs in Melaka ♥

so on 13th Jan, Pumpkin & Nuts came down to Melaka :3
would have been purrrrfect if Karine could join us >.<

anyway, it was a superb trip! ♥
haha, rented car and picked them up at Sentral that night :)
went for Satay Celup @Ban Lee Siang, Jln Ong Kim Wee :D
lupa take photos... paiseh paiseh haha..
after that went home n chatted till almost 4am @.@

Next day- Jonker! :P
We all looked so dead and zombified.. esp me (damn the eye bags!) lol.
Eileen just zha-zha mode HAHA. Miy was hyper -.-
So went morning Jonker by bus,

for Chicken Rice Balls...
hehe.. damn full this day, keep eating only! >w<

cendol, sago gula melaka, durian puffs, nyonya pai tee!! ♥

Nyonya Pai Tee~ yumm yumm :P

After that, walked to Dataran Pahlawan :3
hahaha, Miya managed to get her skirt from Brands Outlet :D
We really shopping gao gao one... lol.
actually wanted to buy 3 identical shirts gehh ):
but fail lor... we tried 2 from F.O.S, but feels "off", so we left T T
ohh ohh~ and Miya got a very lady blouse? dress? hehehe ^^

before walking back to St. Francis Xavier Church,
went for Nadeje Cake! hehe, a must try if you 1st time come Melaka :3
Glad Miya enjoyed it :P

Royal Milk Tea Mille Crepe Cake ♥ 

Church was great ♥
hehehe :) Miya's 1st time in Catholic church!
hopefully she din feel out of place lol.

Lastly.... Night Jonker! :D
got event siaaa... Dragon Dance n Lion Dance..
the Lions a lot lerh.. about 5 to 7? LOL

Anyway, EAT EAT EAT again!! >.<
Durian Roll, Durian Fire Ball, Durian Crispy Roll ♥ (must get for durian lovers!!)
Taiwan Sausage.. *w* [if u dare, go Old Newton FoodCourt, get the super malak ;) ]
Potato Twist Tower~
Yam Coin
Fried Lobak Kuih~
Portuguese Eggtart :3

All in all, got some other things from Jonker...
hehe.. Bought drinking dices lol.

 and a hand-bag/ sling bag ♥

Miya got herself a PINK purse :D
honestly, the design very the nice! HEHE... pink oso nvm larr
girl mah~ use pink is okies de ^^

Went to San Shu Gong to buy some local delicacies before heading home :)
Mummy larh, ask me buy oso to bring back for CNY~

Home at last, divided all the cost payable to one another :)
Eileen K.O-ed after that. haha..
I printed out some photos ♥

Gave Miya & Eileen each one :3
Then, had a chat with Miya till about 3am? lol.
Had a very the awesome sleep that night! :D
too tired lol~

15th Jan~ LAST DAY LERH! wuwuwuwu!
time fly so fast larh! WHY?! TELL ME WHY ):
so, sending them off to Sentral lurh...
went Tesco Kluang Station for brunch 1st thou~

then jalan jalan around Tesco :D
then... then.... farewell lor T.T
*hugs* miss you guys ady arh!
♥ we shall meet up again soon! :') ♥

so I was tempted to just do smth... hehe..
here's a random collection of some of the pics we took! :D

Note to Self

It's hard to LISTEN for GOD'S VOICE in this modern world,
with all the loud temptations and challenges.

God, help me to be like Samuel, to be able to listen to Your voice.
and respond, "Lord, speak now, Your servant is listening."

It's hard to CARRY THE CROSS in this modern world...

Grant me the strength, the wisdom, the guidance, the mercy and the grace to carry my daily cross.

January.

So far so good?
problems from last year not settled yet.
Pls pray for me that it can be settled before CNY ):

anyway, praise be to God, finished my last assignment!

thick enough? :P

Legal Methods was a pain in the ass.
special thanks to Angela for exchanging information :P
& Good Job to my group members <3

the next agenda... TUTORIALS.
piled up a mountain of them. can die whey ):
nid to hand it in before 20th! DAYUMM.

then it would be FINALS.
gosh, gives me the chills ):
so scared... uhhhwaaaa T T

fact of life

The truth always hurts.
So if you're not up for it,
Don't ASK for it.

朋友 [friends]

Words & actions don't have power to hurt you, 
unless the person means a lot to you.

It's not that we want to control you.
Let's just put it as we're selfish ok? ):
It's just that.. you matter to us and we really do care.

I understand that in your point of view, we might be over-reacting..
but really don't wish for you to walk down that path.. again.
given the circumstances u are in, I understand the rationale behind it.
but it doesnt make it ok >.<

against the odds,
I choose to believe that you would keep your word.

I understand that it might not be easy,
but baby steps?
The 1st would be to stop saying it's not such a big deal.
Because to us, it is.

Every time you do that, you're not just killing yourself.
You're killing a part of me that I really care about.

Why, Hello There 2012~ ♥

ok, so 2011 ended horribly.
some things happened lar so pls pray for me,
that everything will go smoothly >.<

anyway~ after leaving KL, felt much better.
and a thot hit me,
since 2011 was so f*cked up, I'm not gonna let 2012 start the same way.
helped a lot whey :) cheered up after that hehe.

so... went countdown @ Movida with my MFs & bro ♥
1st time go club lerhh ;) not bad lar, for 1st time clubbing lol~
but the dance floor so small lar...

anyway,
damn wasted sial~~! about 60% drunk lar -___- (given my bday was 100% lol)

damn nice lerh! :3 sweet & very apple-ish. 

Bro & Me ♥ 

Group photo! :D but Woofy taking the pic ):

With Goat & Pokey~ aka, my parents in MMU ;P

so~~  Happy New Year everyone!

New year, New hope, New start! :)
love all my friends~ family~
May God bless you all with wonderful experiences, worthy achievements and love ♥
I miss all of you! jiayous my dears~ ♥

Goodbye 2011

once again, time flew by like a rocket.
It's already 01/01/2012!

as for my culture, I always sum up the year in a post :)
It is good, to look back at the year that passed,
reflect, ponder & treasure the achievements, experiences
but not forgetting to learn from our mistakes, disappointments as well.

Briefly, 2011 is pretty f*cked up year.
but well lived I guess?
oh! and I reached 100+ post in 2011! :D

some of the memories that I can remember :)

[ ♥ ] got closer with you ♥
[ ♥ ] got a BEATS headset :P thou replica, but still love it!
[ ♥ ] learnt how to curl my hair myself :D
[ ♥ ] did 1st ever rebonding
[ ♥ ] got drunk -___-
[ X ] got pretty bad results academically ):
[ ? ] got a sex toy as bday present =.=
[ ♥ ] got Virginity! :3 (my turtle)
[ ♥ ] hectic drama experience (both competition & presentation)
[ ♥ ] bailiff experience!! ♥
[ ♥ ] made the first pairs of crystal earrings <3
[ ? ] experimented with make up :P
[ # ] got dental appointments! DID SCALING! :D
[ ♥ ] wore colour contacts! ♥
[ ♥ ] saw & caused someone's to show 'dulan' face :3
[ ? ] gave someone a very expensive gift :O
[ ? ] watched horror movies
[ ♥ ] took pics from inside the plane!
[ X ] got into a state of hypertension @@
[ X ] got very the heartbroken ):
[ ♥ ] went genting with my babehs~ ♥
[ X ] sprained my back -.-
[ ♥ ] volleyball!

many many more actually :) hehe.. it would take forever to list them out.

Looking back, I feel like I din change much? feel as noob as before hahaha...
I must admit, I'm a mess in life but I'm trying,or at least gonna try to be better.
Goodbye 2011! My last few days of 2011 was crap.
So... Cheers and good riddance :P
May the good stay in our hearts forever & the bad, lessons well learnt.

God, please continue to be with me & my dear ones ♥
Grant us wisdom, guidance, peace and shower us with mercy, blessings and graces.
Thank You Lord! Amen!