Penance

It had been awhile since I went for the Sacrament of Reconciliation.
It's Holy Week and this year, I finally went for it.
Queued for 1 hour +! But it was worth it, definitely.

Before God, I'm just so vulnerable. Transparent.
He always makes me realise what I truly felt inside,
beyond all the masks I wear in daily life..
and the walls that I had built around my weak heart.
The feelings I locked deep down in the vaults of my heart burst opened.
Tears just whelmed up as I confessed my sins.
Honestly, I didn't expect it to be such an emotional encounter.
But praise the Lord, I could feel the load lighten off my shoulders, even if it's just that bit.


Thank you God, for forgiving me.
Oh my God, I am truly sorry for having sinned against You.
Because You are so good and with Your help, I will not sin again.

I prayed before the groto of Mama Mary, I cried.
They said crying is a sign of healing.
So tonight I healed, not in totality but at least slightly.
Slowly and with God's grace, I will learn to forgive you.

The priest said to me, 
"Each time you get an opportunity to do good things for people, don't do it for their sake, do it for God."

Amen to that! :)